I just broke it off with my boyfriend two days ago. Yeah, it's sad but I had to do it. And that's how far I'll go into it.
I feel guilty because of how upset he was, but other than that, I just had to do it.
Fin.
phantasmag0ria
I Am An African:: I Am An African :: I Am An African
| I Am An African :: Abas Idris |
| What does it mean today to truly be an African? We the seeds of the first people, but none of us is trackin’ em. I’m asking then, what are the true traits of our people? We smile in each others faces, but our real feelings aren’t so equal We come from a land where man began; But instead of joining hands, We destroy each others plan, in pursuit of the American dream. See the dream is really a nightmare, cuz it strips you of your culture. While we reach for that American eagle, we lose our nafss to the vultures. See, I’m tired of melodramatic voices Making fanatic choices that affect me and all of my rights No more European books; Or giving the forefathers a second look Only truth will be told when I’m holding the mic Now my palms might be sweaty But I think that I’m ready to tell the world Africa’s more than spears and empty bellies We are a legacy of leaders and chiefs, with customs and beliefs Now our people need our help, so we have a duty to bring relief I’m talking about making Fitsula our number one mission I’m talking about Haile Selassie before they made him a religion A vision, a vision of people who bring the thunder from within And look under they skin, to see that our souls are one Our people stood for freedom, even though they beat them Plus the enemy was holding guns We have children who look like me, who are expected to die at three Cuz infected with HIV, and I’m told I should be taking it lightly No, see I have a mission, I’m wishing, I could be fixing the system. A system that’s built, trying to diminish my vision. See I’m a Nubian prince; and I’m using my sense, to understand the situation for what it is In America we got fathers who won’t man up So they put our boys in hand cuffs, And now we got parents against their kids Now my dark skin is sparking emotions in my heart and brain I know we must stand together and withstand the weather Because there will be sunshine after the rain As a member of a lost tribe, I remember men who lost wives And children who grew up with no mothers As we banning together, I will never forget my elders And always stay true to my brothers So since I can’t be in the mother land, I’m a take my brothers hand And make him understand, that I am an African I try to stay aware like the streets be, wearing a gabi or a dashiki As MTV tries to trick me, I yell, stop I am an African See I’m proud of my rough hair, and I don’t give a damn where I’m a scream it through the air, I am an African All I ask now is that with my dying breath, while I’m lying next to death, I can still say with full heartedness’ that I am an African And for those who won’t be clappin, cuz they don’t like what we rappin, I stay tough cuz we are here to stay I see unity in the distance, and we can have freedom in an instance, So all my Africans make way. |
Horoscope
| My Horoscope (Aquarius) Today(5-9-06): | ||
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| Stand tall against whatever -- or whoever -- intimidates you today. That hipster barista is no cooler than you, your boss isn't any smarter than you, and public speaking is no sweat if you picture them in their skivvies. Self-empowerment is easier than you think. All you have to do is learn more about what you fear. Strike up a conversation and practice, practice, practice! You're part of the human tribe today, so embrace it!
Tomorrow:
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My Love Life
Right now, I can say, my "love life" is pretty great. I mean, I found this guy a few months ago, well he found me, and we've been dating every since...
Here's a little entry from a past blog about our first date/meet:
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Feb. 18, 2006 - Hey!
Oi!
This guy from London asks me out yesterday at the mall, and he is soooo adorable and his accent is soooo cute too! And he claims his (not immediate) family is Yoruban roalty. We'll see about that.
He asked me out on a date, so we're going to the movies today to see "Date Movie", which is going to be hilarious, I'm sure.
That should break some of the just-met-a-guy-at-the-mall-and-now-going-on-a-date-for-the-first-time tension.
Can't wait! We meet today at 2:00, and we'll see the movie at 2:45!
And the ironic thing, here are my horoscopes (Aquarius):
Someone you've had your eye on will be more than happy to stay up late tonight, chatting away about every subject imaginable. Make some coffee, and make yourself available. You may be tired at work tomorrow, but you've heard of power naps, and you're undoubtedly familiar with the concept. Take one, then gulp down that coffee and head out to continue astounding the masses. Your mission is to keep your reputation intact. Ready? Bet you are. (yesterday)
Today: You're about to rush headlong into an encounter with someone who's so interesting and unusual -- no, downright fascinating -- that you might actually be able to picture yourself spending more than just a few evenings with them. Well, if that's truly the case, don't bother with a movie. Why waste valuable getting-to-know-you time in silence, and the kind of darkness that makes you feel awkward, not closer? Have coffee or a nice bottle of wine instead, at that cute little place around the corner -- and talk!
I'll update tomorrow! 
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Here's the Update:
Feb. 21, 2006 - Date Update! 
Yeah, so the date was fun, it was awesome, and we saw Date Movie, which was friggin' hilarioius. In a really, really stupid way.
So he was a little grope-y and touchy-feely, but overall, it was OK. I think he's a little fast, lol. Call me old fashioned. 
And he keeps calling me, which is so adorable.
And yes, we are "going out" now. We are dating. 
I finally have another man.! 
I love my baby John
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